Get To Know Earl Part 1

Sometimes people wonder why I act the way I do or people say why do certain things here is an inside view of me for  those who think they know a few may but most don't. Give you a quick background of my life. Grew up being the only child which has a lot to do with who I am today and why. Growing up as the only child has its good and bad points all the attention and sometimes spoiled my childhood was a good one even though I grew up in East Cleveland I didn't have the average childhood I was privilege my mom got me everything and more never wanted for nothing. Didn't have a father growing up so the relationship we have not is ok it has gotten better over the years. Wonder why I am kinda distant and I like being alone sometimes here is why. Let's take my father side of the family. I have a half brother and a half sister. They have had several family reunions how many have I been to ?? Zero, Didn't see my brother for the first time until I was 16 I enjoyed every moment just wished it didn't take so long. My sister love her we live in the same city only see her a handful of times a year ever since I can remember. Not saying who fault it is but both of my siblings are much older than me so when I was younger how come they didn't reach out to me?? I don't know I am sure they have their reasons. To me its kinda too late that sibling friendly love because the relationships are built already. As far as my aunts and uncles on my father side go. Some are cool. One aunt of mine asked me a few years back how come you don't call me?? My response was idk. I was thinking growing up you never called me as a kid so why would I wanna call you know???? I have some uncles when they come around its all love but to me its fake you don't mess with me once you leave I won't hear from you till the next time its always been that way really found out you was my uncle in my teenage years so you are irrelevant to me. Also the way they did my mom wasn't cool and I hear and remember everything. My father situation growing up I couldn't call him I had to page him and then I would wait for him to call me from a private number. I believe his wife had him like that which to me is stupid. What type of man allows his wife not to have a relationship with his children?? or What type of woman doesn't want her husband to talk to his child. He has made every graduation which is great and whenever I ask him for anything he helps me, but sometimes I would rather have memories over money. When some of my friends tell me stories about their father growing up I really can't relate because my memories are so few. I am grateful that I do have some memories and that my father is around because some people have worse situations than mine. I enjoy my cousins and the time we spend together I just wished we were closer and I hung around them more besides on just holidays. I sometimes feel I am the step child or I don't belong in the family but it is what it is.... The picture above is the only picture ever taking of my father, my brother and my sister and I. All of my father's children. Wonder how do I view my mother side of the family and friends stay tuned???.......